19 Those whom I love I rebuke and discipline. So be earnest and repent. 20 Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me.
21 To the one who is victorious, I will give the right to sit with me on my throne, just as I was victorious and sat down with my Father on his throne. 22 Whoever has ears, let them hear what the Spirit says to the churches.”
“Those whome I love I rebuke and discipline.” Ugh, who wants to be rebuked and disciplined? I already know Im not perfect, no need to make me feel bad for it! But that’s the thing, He knows you arent perfect and He isnt the one condemning you. Conviction is loving guidance and when you rebel against it then you often feel condemned. Submit and surreneder to the conviction of your loving Father (yes, Lord, I acknowldege my sin, I ask for forgivness and ask for You to step in and change me. I can do nothing without You, and Im thankful to know You will walk with me every step of the way.). As soon as you step in to His goodness and mercy that follow you all the rest of your life (Psalm 23:6) then you feel the condemnation fall away. If you were ever in sports and you told your parents that the coach always seems to be on you, always calling your name, and your parents said its because coach sees your potential. Its when the coach stops calling your name that you should worry. Same here. When you feel the conviction of God in your life dont think of that as a bad thing. Its when you stop feeling it that you should worry.
Is Jesus knocking on your door? Are you scared to let Him in because you dont want the conviction? Are you scared you wont be good enough? Pray over that. We are all found wanting, my friend. We all fall short. If any of us got it right all the time then why did Jesus die on that cross? He is here to change us, each and every day. That conviction of love we may not be used to right away but dont let it scare you away. Our momentary afflictions are but a vapor in this life. We have a whole eternity awaiting us. What door do you want open to you? I can tell you which door Jesus wants you to open right now. He loves you. He made you for such a time as this. Open that door.