For the past year I have been at work with God over, what I thought, was a weight problem. He showed me it is actually a food problem. I read books like Thin Within and an online course called Setting Captives Free. They both suggested to come off restrictive diets (unless you have other health issues that require a special diet, of course) and learn your hunger cues. I have fought back and forth with this. I wanted to lose weight the way I always have. Then the word ALWAYS stuck out to me in that sentence. Yeah, I know how to lose weight. I know how to fight it off good quick and in a hurry. But it ALWAYS comes back. Why? Becasue I have a food problem? Sure. But then God told me, go deeper. I started feeling like I only wanted to lose weight for vanity reasons. Pride reasons. I have prayed for God to show me how to do this for His glory and not mine. This morning He gave me an answer. He brought to mind the last time I lost weight. I looked at my reflection and was shocked at what I saw. I liked the way I looked and I felt great. So, what keeps me from going back to that person? I saw my reflection in my window this morning and knew the answer. Because this girl I see today takes very little effort. The girl with this weight isnt going anywhere. I dont have to “try” to be her. She is comfortable. When I lose weight, then that reflection is one that I can lose. It takes effort to keep that reflection. So, I go back to what is easy and comfortable. God does not call us to go to what is easy and comfortable. He calls us to put in effort and He will make it possible. God made us all worth the effort. I am worth the effort. Praise Jesus, He has put worth in me.
So, here is to my weight loss journey. I have not lost a pound last year but I have gained so much more than weight. I have gained the wisdom to drop this burden. Here is to the next year of my life. Here is to letting this weight come off once and for all. Im leaving this burden behind. My Father says I am worth it. In Jesus name, Amen!
2 Timothy 1:7
For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.